Oh my having my son of course

"What's the most memorable thing in your life?"
that's the question as I find most amazing in itself from people who know me to my core
My son's birth of course!!!!
Other than that it's all mixed up - responsibility to the vets, our family, our friends who have no conception
It's a mixed up world for us NOK - who do we believe in? who do we trust with our utmost thoughts than in some areas could be classified as treason, who do we continue contact with as friends/allies?
NO-ONE - we have no one for ourselves to believe in or them us, and we end up bringing up our kids as the only people too
In turn we teach them not to trust - god damn generation twice removed from vietnam and they are wearing the legacy too - with pride yet with condemnation too
We only want a reason to believe - the vets, the moritorium protestors, our family - none give us that reason to believe in all that may be true - all we want is for someone to say its okay to believe like we do - that the world aint so bad a place to be
God damn I've saved so many vets from committing suicide etc and here I feel on the brink onceagain on and there is only those that need more than me -- forever and ever and ever
When is it my turn? When will I travel under the light of another path not one under the shadow of vietnam?